Oh, hi! Yes, hello, I have a blog/site thingy! Who would have known? I even forgot it was here. Oops!
One of the main causes of this might have been because I tried to do too many things at once. Last year I really wanted to focus on my platform as every aspiring author should. However, I fizzled out and stopped doing any of it because I couldn’t do it all. So, foolish me thought, “If I can’t do it all, I won’t do any of it”. It’s not a good way of thinking about it, but I’m a perfectionist and I hate doing a bunch of little projects half-assed (pardon my language), and it’s exactly what I was doing.
At the beginning of 2018, when I first got serious about my platform I had one social media aspect down pat, and that was Twitter. It’s still my favorite source for interacting with other writers/authors, and the writer’s community I’m apart of is filled with the most amazing people. It was a good start, but of course, I wanted to do it all. I made an Instagram page, I made this website that I’m finally dusting the cobwebs off, and I made a YouTube channel. That doesn’t seem all too hard to manage, right? Wrong. I was very wrong. Not only would I have to manage four different social media aspects, but I also had to make time to write. Oh, and work 40 hours a week with 1.5 hours of travel time to and from a day. And make time for my partner, who at the beginning of 2018 got completely ignored while I tried to manage my hectic life (sorry, Love. I’m learning to find balance). My niece and nephew live down the street and I don’t make much time for them. And I guess I should also make time for my friends who I haven’t talked to for a year, and yes, I’ve lost a few in the process. I should also go to the gym more than once a week and eat something other than Mr. Noodles just because it’s convenient. And my house looks as though two bachelors live in it when it’s actually just me and my partner.
2018 was a year of utter chaos, poor time management skills, and, in the end, clarity.
I am one person. I can’t do it all. And I’m learning to be okay with that.
One thing I’m going to cut completely is YouTube. Every time I think of making a video, I feel my anxiety levels creep up. I’m VERY shy. It takes me a long time to warm up to people and be my self, so making video’s for so many people to see makes me want to hurl. On top of that, I actually have to look like a decent person, do my hair, makeup, and so on. I’m currently writing this post in the wee hours of the morning in the comfort of my fluffy robe. It’s fantastic. *Takes a long swig of coffee* There is also the fact I’d have to edit the video. Guys, take a look at my site here. It’s bare bones at best. I am not a tech-savvy person. Editing a video takes me all day. ALL DAY. I don’t have time for it. I might do one now and again for a fun tag, but that’s it. Besides that, I’ll keep making WIP playlists, but the account will be pretty stagnant.
Instagram and this blog will be on a schedule. Like clockwork. Easy to manage.
I’m keeping my twitter time to an hour a day. As much as I love the crazy shenanigans of the thread that have no end and no beginning, it’s extremely time-consuming. (I love you guys, I’ll still be around, just not as much).
If you don’t know me, I’m all about setting unrealistic goals. Yup, I like setting myself up for failure, but to be honest, 9/10 I end up beating these goals. But it comes with sacrifices, like sleep, quality time with my partner, unhealthy eating habits, the list goes on.
2019 is going to be my year of balance. I’m going to make time to do all the things I love to do.
I bought my first daily planner ever, I feel like a real adult now, and I’m sticking to a schedule. I’m going to give myself quarterly goals. And yes, they are going to be realistic. I’m a slow learner, but I’m learning. I’m going to find balance in all aspects of my life. It might not all happen right away, there may be a few learning curves, but I’m ready and I’m excited.
Anyway, I think that’s all I’ve got to say for now.
Thanks for reading!
AKA Shannoon, because let’s be honest here, there is probably more than one typo or grammar error in this post even though I’ve skimmed through it with a fine tooth comb.